From miss to mrs.

Assalamualaikum and greetings.

I have not wrote anything here for so long and this would be my first post as Mrs. Mokry. Ops. Mrs. Hanani. :)

It's my 113 days of marriage alhamdulillah.

Life has been good.

I am so blessed,

That's all I need to remember.

I am writing this when i am not really feeling so happy because of my own thoughts. It's been jumbling and making me feel so low. But hey, just hope that there's blessing in disguise.

InsyaAllah, all this will pass. I hope I will be strong enough to handle my emotions and these twirling thoughts.

Just want to remind myself that yes, life has been good but it can turn to bad and that's okay. Because no one is promised a better life without problems.

So am i good now?

Yeah i should be..

January 2019, i am counting for that. 😃

Love,
Hanan.

8.7.18
658am
Jitra

Ramadhan Do'a List

Assalamualaikum.

Please prepare yourself with a du'a list for the upcoming month of Ramadhan.

Everytime you feel like you don't have anything to do (as if), refer to your du'a list and read it wholeheartedly. :)

Believe in the miracle of Ramadhan and put the utmost trust in Allah that He has no problem to grant all your wishes.

In sya Allah.

Remember our brothers and sisters in Palestine, Syria, Rohingya and other parts of the world... include them in our du'a.

May Allah give us the best.

Saya nak jadi kaya

Perlu punya banyak duit.

kenapa?

supaya lebih banyak mampu utk bersedekah ☺️
simple kan?

mengumpul harta utk akhirat

road to financial freedom

tapi jangan lupa,
seandainya tidak punya banyak duit

berbagilah dengan apa yg ada pada dirimu.

masa?
tenaga?
doa?

Jadi lah orang yang dicintai Allah 😊

#selfnote
#diarinani
#randomadvicetoself
#hidupuntukakhirat

Words.

Assalamualaikum!

Words are powerful tool to change the world.

It's either can made someone's day or ruin their day.

I had felt it.

Been told by someone,

'You'd caused a great inconvenience for us'

It made me feel like my world was upside down at the moment.

I trembled with fear, and cried like crazy that day.

I will never forget.

While some other days,

I get kind words from someone,

'Be happy' or 'Be positive' or a polite 'Thank you'

Made me smiled all the day.

I shall never forget.

(It also depends on whom the person is)

The point here is,

I would like to advice myself to use good words to other people, because you'll never know what are the burden they are going through.

Simple.

Hasil muhasabah dalam bilik air,
Tatkala terkenang hari hari kelam sebelum nya.

4 February 2017.
Safiyyah.

Nightmare comes true?

Assalamualaikum.

Second post for the day.

Just finished islit class, where I am the only single student! Suprisingly Dr. M also said that this is his first experience to have only one student too.

Okay, that is not the nightmare I want to tell about.

Hmm...

From the first day of becoming a MA student, I told myself, I must finish everything on time. Which means in 4 semesters and that was also a reason for me to do my MA in coursework mode. I believed that the process I had to deal with is easier if I am doing coursework. So yeah. That was my impression at first.

So I prayed a lot for Allah, to let me pass all these in 4 semesters, and graduate on time.

But I dont know, if my prayer will be granted, or saved for better perhaps?

I am at that stage where I am losing my direction, I have no control over my own life. Bcs I have to depend on other people to accept what I want. (if you don't understand i don't care)

I do not know what awaits me tomorrow, next week, next month, next year?

Perhaps I have to change my life plan? Start all over again?

I am not sure.

For a moment I just want to scream,

I just want to cry my heart out,

I just want somebody not to judge me.

But console me and still believe in me.

I don't know.

2017.

Assalamualaikum!

So it's 2017. And today is the second day of the second month. Another three years to see flying cars... no?

I am not sure if 2017 will bring the best out of me or the beast in me? Haha. Many things happened lately, in the first month especially... I swear if I can tear my heart out, I will do it so that I won't experience the pain and the hurt, and the frustration, anger... arghh. so many things to think!

I had very bad moments in my third semester of MA (September 16-January 17), especially in writing my first long paper. It's so frustrating.. I'm frustrated with myself, a lot... :'(
There's a lot of things I shouldn't do, and supposed to do it better. :'(
Semester 3 sucks. my result also down :'(

And then with the allergy which hasn't got any better, at all! It really put me in a pressure, and stress. Not knowing how to cure it, what to do with it and all. It is a hard time for me...

Not only that, recently... on 29th of January, my car got into an accident. which I have not tell my parents, yet. Yeah, it is assuring that the person who hit my car will pay for everything, but you know... everything will not be the same again. And my baby (my car ;p) is only five months old. Still a baby, still cannot eat solid food. haha. only petrol lol. And the food price is also increasing by 20cents in Feb!! With that hike, of course it will affect other industries. Kesian wei rakyat Malaysia.
Nak pindah US pulak Trumpet tak bagi. XD

I'm back in IIUM for my last semester... just when I thought this semester, especially the add drop part will go smoothly..... no! It will not let me be in peace. I will have to confront Madam again and again. I cannot tell what is the real problem with this but it is putting me in trouble. I can only pray that Allah will soften her heart to face a 'problematic student' like me. My reputation is gone down the drain in this Mdm's eyes I guess. Huuuu... I prayed to Allah in my sujoods so that she will not go too hard on me. That feeling when you feel you are disliked by someone, and that someone is your lecturer. Huuu...

This semester also the final exam is fully abolished so the 100 marks is going to be from the assessments. I'm not sure how topsy-turvy this semester will pass but I'm convinced that it's going to be as complicated as I am! Hahhaha

I know I shouldn't focus on these things too much and just do whatever I could to fix and make it better. I should have counted my blessings which are far greater and bigger than my problems.
But my mind is distracted and it has made me feel down, down, down, downnnn....

So no positive vibes here in this post. Just want to release my thoughts and write as a theraphy, and one day I might read this again and be proud of myself.. that I managed to pass these hurdles and end it with a smile on my face. Huhu

Can't wait for ze convocazion dayzzz.

Till then,
Bye.

miserableHanani.
Feb 2, 2017

Lelaki Hensem

Menjadi seorang lelaki

Lelaki yang hensem menurut anda seperti apa?

Yang berjambang tebal
Yang berkumis nipis
Yang hitam manis
Yang putih bersih
Yang bercahaya nur iman

Haha.

Mungkin cukup sekadar sedap mata memandang, kulit yang bersih dan dijaga rapi. Kan?

Tak bermisai jambang pun tak mengapa, asalkan kemas dan rapi

Maka, seorang lelaki juga perlu menjaga penampilan diri, tak cukup sekadar gagah bina badan di gym, tapi muka kusam dan masam!

Lelaki pun macam perempuan jugak kan, risau juga kalau jerawat penuh satu muka! Blackheads merata-rata.. parut jerawat lagi. 😭

Boleh lose confidence jugak.

Saja nak bagitahu, set penjagaan wajah Mary Jardin ni sesuai utk lelaki dan perempuan 😉

Apa salahnya melabur sikit harini utk hari-hari yang gembira di masa hadapan.

Mahal ke Mary Jardin ni?
Mahal la kalau pakai sehari terus habis, tapi satu set boleh tahan dalam 2-3 bulan. Tak mahal dah aihh...

Isteri boleh hadiahkan utk suami tau.😍

Hihi..

Sekarang ada promo beli dua basic set, dapat satu microfibre towel.
Haa, isteri satu, suami satu. Cantik dan hensem bersama. 😋

Boleh pm saya sekarang utk offer ni!

#MJbyHanani
#MJGloriousGorgeous

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